somewhere in the past...

Man, I'm getting depresssed, low, quick
When am I gonna learn, who am I gonna turn, too.
empty heart
delusional thoughts
martyard wife
shattered life
false
the mask wherein I hide
sores of pain full thoughts, wounded pride
all hope abandoned
a long time ago
in my mind
open wounds drip, claws that wont release
pull me in to make it, present.
Paranoid
where have I gone
who stole my happiness and left me this diseased soul
took my life and threw me aside
and it was gone, I blinked and
I screamed inside my head
starring in the mirror
I'll kill you
give me back, whats mine and all that should have
been, stolen
I'll find you and kill you, me
laugh, don't cry
hide
inside, your head, keep it secret
pain, loneliness, paranoia, don't tell
don't tell, STOP YELLING!
my head aches with the bickering
the war never ceases suffering increases
I can't even look at you
me
pieces
my life has been torn into
no use of picking them up what no love can put
back together
Unitl you, so much alike so much to hate
especially of what reminds me of me
scream, scream again, there's no end...